July 22, 2010 = Sad Day for My Family

Tomorrow is going to be a sad day. It is my Grandmother’s (my dad’s mom’s) funeral. She died this past Sunday before my parents, my sister, Sarah, and I could get the chance to go see her in the hospital. And we found out that she is to be buried as close as possible to my baby brother, Justin, whom Mom unfortunately had a miscarriage with. She was only five months along with him. If he was to be alive and went through till full-term, he would be seventeen right now.

It made my parents cry with shock when they found out that she is to be buried by Justin. After all of these years, my grandmother never forgot about him. She made the decision of where to be buried in 2001. And no one knew a thing about it until all of us that were at the hospital found out on Sunday. No one! I have told myself that Grandma is a God-send to my parents, my sister, and me because she is with Justin now. Physically, that is. After the funeral, Mom, Dad, Sarah, and I, and probably my aunt, her family, my uncles, and one of my uncle’s family are supposed to go visit Justin’s grave. I told Mom on Sunday that now we have a reason to at least go to the cemetery once a year because Grandma and Justin are buried in the same cemetery. And also, they are buried in Illinois and we live out in Indiana. Before, we would (unfortunately and very rude of us) go to Justin’s grave once every few or five years.

And what is giving my aunt and Dad comfort is that Dad has said that Grandma is with Grandpa. He died a little over thirty-three years ago.

I hope that at the funeral and the burial, there will be no problems at all. There is this one guy that my dad, aunt, and uncles do not like at all because he has done wrong by the entire family, especially Grandma.

It sucks that this is another death my parents, Sarah, and I have to go through. In December of 2008, we had to put our first dog down. In June of 2009, my Grandmother (mom’s mom) passed away. In May of this year (2010), we had to put our second dog down. And now, in July of 2010, my grandmother has passed away. And then, within the next year or so, my Great-Grandma (mom’s grandma) is most likely going to pass away because she is in her mid-90s. And then within the next few years or so, my grandfather (mom’s dad) is going to pass away.

It is going to be one sad day for all of us, especially Grandma’s five children.

Summer & School

Here I am, in the beginning of July. The temperature is so hot. Unfortunately, I can’t have my air conditioning on in my room during the day because the one in the front room is on and having both on will trip a circuit. So, right now, I am laying on my bed right in front of my desk fan. Even with the fan on, it is so hot because it is only blowing warm air on me.

Next weekend, my parents and I are going to my aunt’s house in Illinois. Unfortunately, also next weekend, my dad and I have to work. It is an outdoor event. So, yes, we will be out in the blazing sun, dying of thirst.

My sister is out of state. She is visiting a friend in Florida or Georgia or somewhere down there. She will be returning either Saturday or Sunday. It is peaceful without her here.

School starts back up in early September. I am so excited, not because it is school, but because after this year is over, I only have one more year of school. And then, I am officially done with school. Right now, I am holding off on an internship until next year because I want to get most of my classes that I have to have for my general education, major, and minor done.

I figure that a month or so before I graduate college, I will turn in a lot of résumés. I will turn them into radio stations, news stations, and papers. I have worked on the school’s newspaper doing copy editing, the school’s news helping record the show, and during Fall Semester, I hope to work at the school’s radio station. I want to get as much experience as I can that way I can decide on what area I want to work in. Right now, I have absolutely no idea of what I want to work in. if I can or if I am able to, I would not mind working in Mishawaka at the South Bend Tribune, News 22, and Sunny 101.5, just because they are in the same building.

I told a classmate of mine from high school that I am going to stop wanting to get a boyfriend while in college. I told her that, now, I am going to concentrate on finishing my classes, graduating, and finding a good job. I also told her that if I get a boyfriend before I graduate, then good for me. Right now, I do not have the time to look for relationships. I mean, graduation is closing in on me. I know that I have a little under two years to go before graduating, but now is the crucial time where I need to make sure I get all of my classes and credits in. And then there is finding a job. Right now, relationships are out the window for me. As I said, if I get a boyfriend before I graduate, then good for me, I just can’t expect or hope that it will last. And then my classmate asked me if she was speaking to the real me. Because up until then, I was always about finding a relationship. Well, it took a good meeting with my major advisor over classes and a good kick in the bum of the time to realize that I should not be thinking about boys. Classes. Graduation. Work. Those are the things I should be worrying about. A year or so after graduation and/or working, I can start worrying about relationships and all.