Torchwood: Miracle Day - Episode 7

No word count here because of the pain I have received in watching the latest episode of Torchwood: Miracle Day.

I finished watching episode 7 of Torchwood: Miracle Day several minutes ago, and for the past several minutes, I have been crying my eyes out. Because I've been thinking about the latest man that Jack slept with (even though it was in 1927).

When I was watching it, when I would see Jack die, I would thank God that Ianto isn't around to see it, let alone hear about it. One of the scenes that Jack dies a lot in (continuously shot and stabbed), I could barely listen. I had to turn my eyes away. I knew that Ianto would be in tears if he saw what Jack was going through. I couldn't put it on mute because I had to know when the people were done killing him over and over again that way I could know when to start paying attention fully.

When Jack and the man (Angelo), whom I am just going to call Shag because I don't think he deserves to be named because he is no Ianto, were talking about a woman they saw across the street and Jack was standing right behind Shag, I kept saying, "Don't do it, Jack. Don't you dare." Well, unfortunately, I didn't get my wish. I also thanked the Lord that Ianto wasn't around to see it. Heck, I'm glad that Ianto wasn't going to be around for another fifty-six years (birth year: 1983) so that he wouldn't have to witness the things that happened to and the things that Jack did. I had to turn away during that scene.

The reason I cried after watching it is because of the things that Jack did that Ianto didn't get or what Ianto had said.

First of all, what Ianto had said when he was still alive. Well, in the third episode of Miracle, that bartender guy told Jack that he liked his coat and that's the only reason Jack was with that guy. Because Ianto always talked about liking Jack's coat. Loving the coat. Even missing his coat. Ianto was the only one to talk about the coat. And that is why Jack was with that bartender. Because he reminded Jack of Ianto.

The second reason I cried, which I cried a ton over as compared to the reason from episode three, is because of Jack and Shag. I think that during the two months or however long Jack was with this guy, he opened up more to him than he's ever done to Ianto, someone he knew for three years. It upsets me that Jack opened up to this guy when he wasn't even asking and Jack was also, basically, confessing his love for him. But with Ianto... In the hour or however long it was before Ianto died, when Ianto was begging Jack to talk to him, Jack just got snippy about it. "I've got a daughter and a grandson who've been taken by Frobisher. I'm going to call him and make a deal. Is that all right with you?" Granted Ianto may have made everyone believe that he had a master tailor for a father rather than someone who probably pushed him to be perfect, but Ianto opened up to Jack. Heck, probably even after episode six of the first season, Ianto opened up to Jack about Lisa. It's sad that Jack didn't even tell Ianto if he loved him while Ianto confessed his love for him before he died. He didn't even tell him that he loved being with him and that he wants to stay with him forever. It's funny that with Shag, Jack's like, "I'm so in love with you. I'll die for you," after two seconds. But after three years with Ianto, Jack's like, "Ehhh, you're okay. You're good for a shag or two. Oh! And thanks for loving me but I'm not going to say that I love you." It upsets me that Jack didn't talk to Ianto about his past: The woman he married, where he lived, his family, work...

God, because of the mood I'm in, I'm listening to Bonnie Raitt's "I Can't Make You Love Me" because it would be Ianto's point of view. And I just started to bawl with the final "'Cause I can't make you love me-e-e if you do-o-on't."

Anyway, where was I? But yeah. It's upsetting that Jack will open up more to someone that he's known for, say, two months as compared to someone that he's known for three years.

And another thing to go along with that: During the time that Jack was with Shag that we saw, Jack was working alongside him, sleeping with him, opening up to him, and him basically telling Shag that he loved him. But whenever we saw Jack with Ianto, it was only work, kiss, and Naked Hide-and-Seek. Oh, and some sayings like, "If you're not busy later," or whatever. But no. You never saw Jack opening up to Ianto.

And another thing! After Jack was with Shag, Jack sat up and kissed him on the back a few times. It's sad that we didn't get to see that when Jack was with Ianto. It's sadder when I can get that simple, loving act out of a fan fic! It's sad that you see Jack be with someone else (even a few kisses given on the back) but you don't see that with Ianto. You see Jack laying in bed next to someone else but you never saw him lying next to Ianto. Okay! They wouldn't have to have given us any making-love scenes between the both of them but a simple lying-next-to-each-other-after-having-been-together-because-they-love-each-other scene and a simple kissing-on-the-back-when-one-is-sitting-a-little-ahead-of-the-other scene would have just been as romantic and/or beautiful as a making-love scene. Because it's Jack and Ianto! Even the most simplest acts between them are so romantic and beautiful! These acts are so powerful that you can feel the love they have for each other!

The mistakes I see that Jack has made, whether they be from the past before knowing Ianto or the present, are: shagging random people, telling people he loves them after only two months, and not opening up to someone that truly loved him.

It scares me that Ianto was exactly what Owen had called him: Jack's Part-Time Shag.