Still Single

This morning, I had a dream about one of my fellow co-workers. His name is Trent; he's thirty (according to his Facebook page); he's been working at Dollar General for six years or so; he's the hardest working person there (not that the others do not work as hard); he's taller than me; and yes, he's definitely cute. Buuuut of course, he's probably in a relationship or he would never think about being in one with me. Amazingly, Sarah said that we would make a cute couple or we would make a good couple or something like that. I would not have a problem if he would at least seem interested in me.

Well, what am I saying? He's a guy. There is not a single guy that would seem into me. I do not want to be an Uncle David or Aunt Lynn. Uncle David was married when he was about forty and started a family when he was forty-one. Aunt Lynn found a guy, probably thought he was "the one", had Tommy. That did not work out and she married Shaun and had Trevor. That did not work out, she met this guy named Ed or something, they did not work out, and she met Bill. Now they have been having problems and she has lost a lot of love for him. She's in her mid-forties. I do not want to be them, including Uncle Daniel or Uncle Kenny. I know that I am only twenty-three, going on twenty-four, and I have my entire life in front of me. But I still do not want to become any of them.

When I was sixteen or seventeen, Pa and Aunt Lynn said that it would take time. But here I am, eight years later and I am still single.

I told Ma that I am about due for a reward in my life. I told her that I spent sixteen or however many years concentrating only on my schooling and not worrying about relationships (though I have had a worry or two along the way). I also told her since I've started working at Dollar General, I have seen female classmates from high school come in with their kids or buy pregnancy tests. She said something in reply about them and I told her that I know but still it is like they are reminding me that I am still single all these years later.

I do not know. I am just sick and tired of being single.