Latest on Torchwood; Jack & Ianto

A couple of weeks ago, I read the post that the band Gareth David-Lloyd is in and they said something about him coming to the U.S. for a conference that is like Comic Con. Except it is not Comic Con. It is just one that is like Comic Con. Anyway! That threw the idea of Gareth returning to Torchwood out the window.

I've been keeping up with Torchwood: Miracle Day. I will say that it is interesting but it's not like all of the previous seasons of Torchwood. And I'll admit that it's because Ianto isn't there. It's interesting in its own way. But Torchwood is supposed to be dealing with aliens. Not a miracle. Let alone things that do not have to deal with aliens. I'll also admit that Miracle keeps you on the edge of your seat. For me, I am not on the edge of my seat. I think that I'm half-on and half-off. Not fully one way. Not fully the other. The latest thing that scared me is what happened to Gwen when she returned to Los Angeles.

Gwen got a mysterious call at the airport and was told to put in the contact lenses. When she did, whoever was typing said, "We have your mother. We have your husband. We have your daughter." Then Gwen said something like, "What do you want?" The person said, "Bring us Jack." As soon as I saw Jack's name, I couldn't help gasping from shock. Heck, it scared the crap out of Gwen because she backed up against a bathroom stall from the sink.

Also, Ianto hasn't been mentioned since that disastrous third episode. I will admit that episode five, I think, had me thinking about Ianto. When the black guy, who is currently working alongside Torchwood, was being loaded up into an ambulance, Jack said to the two people that he loves him and something about him being his boyfriend. As soon as I heard that, I was in shock. I was like, "Thank the good Lord that Ianto is not here to hear that." I also thought something like, "What? Couldn't Jack have just told them that he was a friend?"

For the past several days, I have been working on more videos. Actually, yesterday I finished a sixth one. On the eleventh, I started making the videos. Unless you want to include gathering songs and lyrics, then I guess I actually started on the tenth. The first one I made was from Jack's point of view. The song was "Somewhere" by Within Temptation. The second video I made was from Ianto's view with "Is This Love" by Whitesnake. The third, Jack's view, was "Nights are Forever (Without You)" by England Dan and John Ford Coley. The fourth, Ianto's view, was "The One I Love" by Oz. The fifth, Jack's view, was "I'd Come for You" by Nickelback. The sixth and final video (so far) was from Ianto's view and had "I Can't Make You Love Me" by Bonnie Raitt. Which reminds me...

I've decided that I'll stop second-guessing Jack's intentions with Ianto and just believe that Jack truly loved Ianto. Even if Russell T. Davies had not and is not intending for Jack to love Ianto. And I'm also going to believe that Jack didn't sleep with that bartender guy in the third episode of Miracle. So, I guess what I'm thinking is that I'm going to believe that the radio play, "The House of the Dead," is the end of Torchwood thus there not being any Torchwood: Miracle Day.

LONG LIVE JANTO!

Summer 2011 Update

There will be, once again, no word count on here because I have not been updating like usual so there are a few things to get in.

First of all: Relay. I was up the entire time. I did not get any sleep. It might be because I was not lying down in the back of the Jeep like usual. Rather, I was in the passenger seat with it reclined.

Second: The Harry Potter books. I started reading the books on either June 14th or 15th. I read the first book, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone, in a whopping ten hours. I read the second one, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, in either eleven or twelve hours. I read the entire series within a month. Possibly three weeks. The only book that took the longest was the fourth one, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. But that is because I was trying to read it on the weekend of Relay and I kept on falling asleep like there was no tomorrow while I was trying to read it here in my room. It is not that the book was boring! Do not get me wrong! I love the book! It is just that Relay wiped the floor with me.

Third: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2. Let us just say: Tissues! I do not know how many times I cried during that movie. There was only one part where I was bawling like crazy and that was when Snape was with Voldemort. I knew that Snape was going to be killed so I started crying immediately. And when Nagini started slamming into Snape, I had to look away. I liked his memories, but I just think that they were a bit rushed but definitely slower than his memories in the fifth movie, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. And Snape leads me to the final point.

For about several days before the movie was to come out in theaters, I have been having Snape/Lily moments. All of those days leading up to when I could actually go see the final movie was filled with looking for pictures of Snape and Lily, watching videos of them, and just plain thinking about them. It was even filled with listening to three songs like crazy: "Lily's Theme," "Snape's Demise," and "Severus and Lily."

Snape's memories: Like I said, they seemed kind of a bit rushed but not as rushed as those in the fifth movie. They were, if I recall, overlapping one another rather than having only ten seconds a scene. When Snape met Lily, absolutely no talking, even when they were laying next to each other under a tree. When Lily was sorted into Gryffindor, you see her shake hands with a boy who said his name was James and she said that hers was Lily. And when James and Sirius were running through the halls and knocked the books out of Lily's hands, James and Lily looked at each other like, "Yeah. I am so gonna marry him/her when I grow up." Um. Hello! That is not how it went! She is supposed to hate James until their seventh year! Do not make it seem like they have a connection as soon as they start! And I just felt so terrible for Snape throughout the whole thing.

And when Snape appeared in Godric's Hollow and found Lily dead on the floor in Harry's nursery, that was emotional. I did not really cry during that scene because, well, I was spoiled. People who went to see the final movie on Friday and Saturday were making short videos using Snape's memories from the final movie. The very first video I watched with Snape finding Lily dead and him crying just had me bawling. That was on Friday. I am quite amazed that Dad did not ask what was going on. I do not think I could have hidden it from him that I was getting spoilers from the movie before I had even seen it. And I could not stop downloading the good ones because I was afraid that they would disappear before I could even get online on Sunday after seeing the movie. And I have still been downloading videos of Snape and Lily, just a short nine days later.

And about Snape and Lily, I have had a couple of ideas for music videos. But they include Snape's memories from the final movie. So, I have to wait until the movie comes out on DVD before I can make a video about the both of them. The two songs that I want to use are: "My Love Is Always There" from the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2 soundtrack. I only just listened to the song yesterday and I had the idea that the song can be about the both of them after having died. The other song is "With Eyes Wide Shut" by blessthefall.

Lastly, Torchwood. This past weekend, I have been watching Torchwood: Miracle Day. Miracle is when absolutely nobody on the planet dies. In the first episode, Jack ended up getting hurt. And it did not heal. At the end of it, Rhys wondered if the roles were reversed. Everyone was mortal while Jack was the only one who was immortal. Now, everyone is immortal and Jack is the only one who is mortal. Which brings me to the second episode.

In that episode, Jack was poisoned and was dying. I was feeling two different emotions while he was dying. The first emotion was sadness that Ianto was not there to be with Jack. The other emotion was kind of happiness. It was that Ianto was not there to see Jack go through what he was going through. If Ianto was there, he would have been probably in tears. And then the third episode.

I hated it because Jack slept with some bartender guy. When the guy was sleeping, Jack called Gwen and talked to her. Ianto was brought up but I do not remember what was said. If I recall, I think that Jack said that he misses Ianto. I personally hope that Jack is feeling upset over losing Ianto. The roles of them are now the same. When Jack was immortal, Ianto was mortal and dying, in Jack's arms! Now, Jack is mortal and is dying. Unfortunately, I can't say that Ianto is immortal because, unfortunately, he died. But yeah. I hope that Jack is feeling upset over Ianto dying.

Apparently there are going to be some memories from Jack and Gwen's past in one of the future episodes. I think episode nine. And then someone on a website either posted a link or a post of a post that the band Gareth David-Lloyd (Ianto) is a part of posted about having to cancel a two-week concert because Gareth was in America (which is where Miracle is being filmed). So, there is a possibility that Ianto is coming back, although in memories. And I am hoping that if the memories do contain Ianto, the editors are not taking clips from previous episodes and adding them into the new episodes or having them redo scenes. I hope that they come up with whole new, different scenes. I can't wait to see if Ianto is mentioned again. I also hope that it is true that Gareth was in America. Especially if there was the possibility that he was filming scenes for Miracle.

Also, there is another Torchwood radio play. The latest of the plays is called Torchwood: The Lost Files. One of them is called, "The House of the Dead." This one has Ianto and Jack as main characters. Ianto is in the bar where a seance is going on. He gets in contact with "Gwen" who says that "she" is on "her" way. Eventually Jack shows up. Both of them go through the entire show, figuring out what is going on. Towards the end, Ianto's dad appears and tells Jack that he can leave now with "him" (Ianto). When his dad disappears, he asks Jack what his dad was talking about. Come to find out, Ianto is dead. No, I mean, Ianto's spirit is walking around the place. Jack talks to Ianto and ends up saying the wrong words. Something to the extent of: "I can't even bear to look at you." I was like, "Excuse me?! You're going to say that to him?!" When Jack tried to touch Ianto, Ianto said something to the extent of, "Don't touch me!" And then, before the Rift closes with Ianto holding some kind of technology from Jack (Ianto had the opportunity to go back to the real world but he decided in the end not to), Jack says to Ianto, "I love you." Ianto says, "I love you, too." HALLELUJAH!! Jack finally told Ianto how he feels!! And then, when the Rift closes and Jack was left on his own, he said, "Good-bye, Ianto." The End. I hated that Ianto did not leave with Jack and he definitely died. But, I am glad that Jack at least told Ianto how he felt.

And now, I am working on another two videos on Jack and Ianto. This time, it is coming from Ianto's point of view rather than Jack's point of view. Which reminds me, I finished those two videos about Jack and Ianto using Jack's point of view a couple of months ago. Anyway! I am using the song "Pieces" by Red and "What About Us" by John Barrowman. I have clips for "Pieces" ready. I just have to add them, edit them, and save the video to my computer before work on "Us."

A Weird Dream Once Again

There is no word count on here because I don't think that dreams should be expected to be written between 450 and 600 words.

Once again, I had a weird dream. And yes, it involved Chris. Hopefully I can remember as much as possible because I am writing this about half-an-hour after I woke up, and I also had to clean up the mess that Indie made along with Mom's torn-up-by-Indie carnations. So, here I go...

Either I woke up on my own and went out to the front room or Sarah woke me up but either way, she told me something about it being my day or something. Anyway, I went out to the front room and Chris had just taken off his shoes. Sarah went and brought out a dress,which ended up being for me. The dress was my wedding dress! It was mostly white. It was kind of layered but then it kind of wasn't. The "layer" around the waist was yellow while the bottom of the dress was, I think, red. A photo was taken by the main frame of my shock.

I end up going to where a wedding would be taking place. It was at West Side Park but the room was definitely different. The room was definitely smaller and to get to it, you had to walk up a few stairs. Anyway, I walk up the stairs and I see this room filled with purple wedding decorations, Dad bending over, working on something, another guy working on something, and Chris looking at me while he was standing by a table. After seeing that this was all for me, I gasped with the need for air, and I started to cry. Chris walked over and hugged me.

Everything had been done in secret. From the wedding dress to the reception hall to the decorations and probably even further down to the First Dance. But yeah, I was shocked by everything.

Mom and Sarah walked into the room and one of them handed me my dress and told me to go get ready. When I came out from changing, it was filling up with people. I even saw an Amish couple. And now that I think about it, it might be because of where Chris works. But anyway!

Mom handed me money and said something to the extent of: "This is for when you go swimming." She then handed me a room key and said, "This is in case you get angry," or something like that. Or it just might have been the room key and not to any "in cases." I then told Mom and Sarah that I didn't have any shoes (appropriate shoes because I might have been wearing sneakers or something) and for someone to go home, go into my orange backpack, and grab my flats. But now, I realize that black shoes and white dresses simply don't go together. So, I would like to think that they simply forgot about handing me my new white dress shoes and they were simply in a corner of the room or still out in the vehicle. But anyway, when Mom left to go get the shoes, I began pacing up and down one side of a table while guests were still filing in. Dad was on the other side, also pacing. Dad told me something to the extent of: "I had my day, now this is your day." And then I went back to pacing.

The End

I know, I know. Not much of a dream. I told myself that if I am having more and more dreams about Chris because the "10th year anniversary" is coming up, I will kill myself. I don't think I could imagine me happily agreeing to marry him, let alone anyone. If I agreed to marry someone, I think it would just be the fact that I would share, not just a bed, but a house with that person. But, yeah. That's how my dream went.

Another Crazy Dream

This was written on June 13, 2011, at 11:13 AM. This also does not have a word count since this was also written as a diary entry.

So, I just woke up from the craziest and/or strangest dream. I can't recall all of the details of it, and I blame the dream on the test I took yesterday (in which it asked about dreaming and I answered that I usually have dreamless sleep) and having had to work at Char's reception this past Friday.

In my dream, the four of us were home and Chris and his girlfriend were over to chat with us. I was sitting on the desk chair, the both of them were sitting on the couch (his girlfriend was sitting closest to me), Dad was in the bathroom doing something, Sarah was in her bedroom doing something, and Mom might have been sitting in the rocking chair. Anyway!

His girlfriend and I start talking about their relationship. She says something and I ask that if the relationship is serious enough that it must be coming to a proposal soon. She ends up with a grin on her face (I don't recall the look on Chris's face). I ask either how long they've been in a relationship or how long she's known him (I don't remember which). I think she said since 1999 to which I think Chris replied with something like, "In your dreams."

Within a couple of minutes, she says something that starts to anger me. She says something to me and adds "Mother F'ing B" to the end of it. That does it. I am off of my chair in a split second and I attack her. I start slapping her with both sides of my hands. I hit her so hard that my slaps would rival that of punches. Eventually, we land on the floor because she's struggling to get away from me and I won't let her. Everyone comes out to see what is going on and they just stand there in shock.

Eventually it stops. I let Peyton out still angry. I come back in and I hear someone say that she needs to go to the hospital. She is quickly taken outside (I think by Chris). I just stand in front of the desk chair with every one's eyes on me. Someone (possibly Chris) says that his girlfriend has a black eye. Chris makes his round of hugs and comes to me last. I don't remember what he said to me but I do remember that when he was hugging me, I wasn't hugging him back. I looked at Mom and I could see that she was trying to hold back laughter from what she had seen me do to his girlfriend. I collapse against Chris because I just want to fall onto my knees over the shock of what I had done. Chris hangs onto me and slowly lowers me onto my knees with him. My face is against the front of his shoulder, breathing in and out, wanting to cry, body shaking in shock.

And then? It's over. I wake up. I could not believe what I had done in the dream. I am still in a little shock. So, apparently, do not mess with me.

Char's Wedding

Written June 11, 2011, 1:06 AM. This does not have a word count because this was to be a diary entry but then I decided to just put it on my blog because that might be faster.

So, Pa and I finished Char's wedding a few hours ago. It was quite...different. We mostly played love songs from my computer as background music. But, before I can talk about the dance, I must start at the beginning.

At one point when the guests were arriving, Dad, Chris, and his girlfriend were talking in front of the booth. I saw him holding hands with her and I just wanted to cry. I was starting to get tears in my eyes. I wanted to go out to the Jeep and start crying my eyes out.

During Char and Leon's dance, Chris was standing behind the booth. Well, I wanted a clear visual of Char and Leon so I ended up standing next to Chris. And I ended up mouthing the lyrics because one of my favorite songs (if not the favorite) was being played as a first dance.

When we started playing the slow songs, I watched as Chris asked his girlfriend to dance and they danced. I think that, throughout the night, I constantly wondered if he was going to ask me for a dance. Eventually, he asked me for a dance.

When he asked if I wanted to dance, I told him that it was up to him. He told me something to the extent of, "Come on." When we moved towards each other, I didn't know where to place my hands. Do I wrap my arms around his neck? Do I place my hands on his shoulders? Do I place my left hand in his right and have my right hand on his shoulder? Eventually, it got to be my left hand on his shoulder and my right in his left. If I recall, we danced to "Don't Know Much" by Aaron Neville and Linda Ronstadt. But I may be mistaken. Towards the beginning of the dance, I happened to glance over to where Annette was sitting and Uncle David and Dad were standing. Both men had cameras! And Sam had a video camera (at least I think it was a video camera) and was capturing me and Chris on film! I think I was so embarrassed. Chris and I talked about it being my senior year in college. We also talked about my major and minor. He even mentioned that we were wearing the same colors of clothing: red shirts, black pants, and black shoes. And then... It was over.

During the rest of the night and Eric Clapton's "Wonderful Tonight," I continuously wanted Chris to ask me to dance. Unfortunately, it did not happen.

I remember that, at a couple of points, Chris came to me for rescuing from Sam and Abby. Dad, Chris, and I were standing behind the booth. Abby came up and was trying to talk to Chris. I leaned down and told her that she needed to go by Annette because there were too many people behind the booth. She turned around and left. Chris thanked me and told me that the bigger one was worse. I also remember that, when I was behind the booth working on music, Chris came up to me and laid his head on my shoulder and proceeded to pretend to be snoring. I think that I said something to the extent of, "You better not be tired," or something like that.

Torchwood

I do not remember why I started watching Torchwood. All I do remember is that I started to watch it last weekend; and I have been watching and downloading music videos on Jack and Ianto, downloaded and watched all of the episodes, and have been coming up with ideas for videos.

To start, Torchwood is a spin-off of Doctor Who with Captain Jack Harkness as the main character. Ianto is an employee. He starts off as, basically, only a coffee boy. When Jack is gone for a year, Ianto starts going on all missions with Gwen, Toshiko, and Owen. It took me ten or so minutes to get the timeline between Jack playing in Doctor Who and Torchwood straight.

Here's the timeline: You meet Jack in Doctor Who. After the first season with the ninth doctor, Jack takes his place in Torchwood. At the end of the first season of Torchwood, Jack disappears (you hear the TARDIS so you figure Jack is with Doctor). Jack is back in Doctor Who for a few episodes with the Master which, for their time, would be a year. At the end, Jack leaves. At the beginning of the second season of Torchwood, Jack reappears. Between the second and third season of Torchwood, Jack, Ianto, and Gwen play a part in the last two episodes of the fourth season of Doctor Who. Then we have the third season (which consists of only five episodes) of Torchwood. At the end of the fifth episode, Jack leaves Earth to travel so that he can try to forget things. In the last episode with the tenth doctor, you see Jack at a bar. I read that Jack will be back for the fourth season of Torchwood, which takes place sometime later.

Anyway... Jack and Ianto began a relationship in Torchwood. Unfortunately, Ianto dies in the fourth episode of the third season. Because of everything that Jack went through in those last episodes of the season, he leaves. Their relationship was beautiful (in my opinion) but Jack's intentions were (and still are) questionable. I mean, does Jack actually love Ianto or was Ianto only, according to Owen, Jack's "part-time shag?" An example of the thing that keeps me worried about the relationship between Jack and Ianto is that at Gwen's wedding reception, she continues to dance with Jack several seconds after Ianto clears his throat and asks to cut in so that he could dance with Jack. Even within the first several seconds when both men dance, Jack looks back at Gwen.

For a couple of the videos, I have how I want to start the videos and who they are going to be about. One of the videos I came up with made me cry when I watched the clip before I listened to the song. The clip I came up with was when Ianto was dying and asked Jack if he would remember him, even in a thousand years to which Jack replied that he would and that he promised. After that scene, I have "Please Remember Me" by John Barrowman (Jack). I read comments to the song on YouTube. Some of the people were saying that it would be Jack remembering Ianto and others saying that that song is definitely their song.

The other video I have planned is when Gwen tells Rhys (although I will try to make it so that she is telling Jack) that Ianto died. The song I have is "My December" by Linkin Park. The song is to be what Jack is like after having lost Ianto.

Osama bin Laden Dead!!

It has been almost ten years since September 11, 2001, where approximately 3,000 people were killed at the Twin Towers in New York City, at the Pentagon in Arlington, Virginia, and a field in Shanksville, Pennsylvania.

This was started by hijackers hijacking four airplanes under the command of Osama bin Laden. Throughout these ten years, bin Laden has been sending videos, basically mocking the United States and telling us that he commanded the attack against us. He has also been in Pakistan these past several years.

President George Bush said that we should do everything to stop terrorist groups and take down bin Laden. He should be getting the credit. Not Barack Obama because he has only received the war. He has not even served in the military before. The credit should most definitely go to our military. And even Bush for sending troops to the Middle East. Obama should only get credit for giving our troops the go-ahead for the finding of bin Laden.

Richard Engel, a correspondent for NBC, said that bin Laden was the "symbol for war against the United States."

Brian Williams, anchor for Nightly News on NBC, said that New York City is under security for the next few days because of bin Laden's murder. He also said that it will be hard for people to enter or leave the city during the present time. Williams said that it has been 9 years, 7 months, and 20 days since the attack on 9/11.

Jim Miklaszewski, a correspondent for NBC at the Pentagon, said that the threat level has been raised due to current news.

In Obama's speech, he began with telling the United States and the world that Osama bin Laden is dead. He went on to start with 9/11, reminding us of how it was a clear day. And then the attacks occurred. He said that, in light of the attacks, the people came together. "[W]e were united as one American family." Obama said that bin Laden was committed to killing innocents in the U.S. and around the world. He said that, in our Fight Against Terror, we have killed several of the men that had helped in the plot against the U.S. He said that in the gunfight against the U.S. and bin Laden, no Americans were harmed, nor any civilians.

Obama continued with saying that Bush said that the war was not against Islam but again bin Laden, a mass murderer. Obama said that we "did not choose this fight. It came to our shores..." He also said that we know what the cost of war is. He went on to say, "[W]e will never tolerate our security being threatened, nor stand idly ben when our people have been killed." Obama finished his speech by saying, "Justice has been done." And said: "[O]ne nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all."

After the speech, Williams gave numbers to the attack on 9/11. He said that there were 2,600 killed in New York City, 125 in the Pentagon, and 256 on four air crafts. He said that this attack "surpasses Pearl Harbor." He gave a quote that was said by a man who had lost his wife in one of the World Trade Centers. The man said that he was "glad this man's evil is off of this world forever."