Near-Death/Hospitalization Experience

I had the scariest experience I had in my entire life. A little over two hours ago, Mom and Dad had come home with groceries as usual and the dogs (especially Indie and Peyton) were going crazy. Well, Dad's knees were sore so it was between Mom and me to bring them in. I told her that I would bring them in if she would put everything away. I go inside with four bags of groceries and the dogs are running around and Dad nearly falls down in the front room. He drops to his knees and starts taking control of the dogs.

For my second trip into the house, I had three half cases of pop. I take them in and I can't shut the screen door because of the pop. As I'm backing out of the house, Indie decides to dart out of the house. I try to grab her but in the process I trip backwards. My right hand tries to wrap around the door jamb but it slips because basically there is nothing to it and I go down hard on the top step, right next to the edge. If I went back any further, I would have went down the stairs, either killing myself or ending up in the hospital. The first thing I do after I landed was grab onto Indie. Dad comes out, grabs Indie, and tosses her into the house. After he tosses her, he shuts the inside door.

I'm sitting on the porch, my arms are held up near my chest because I hurt them, my legs are also sore, and also my bottom, especially where my leg and bottom meet. Dad kneels down next to me and asks what hurts and what groceries are left in the truck. I tell him that I will get them and to give me a minute so that I could gather my thoughts. I was in such shock over having nearly gone down that I couldn't think about anything else. Suddenly I start crying and having a little bit of difficulty breathing.

From the point I started crying to when I calmed down must have been a good ten or fifteen minutes. Currently on my right arm, I have a big bruise, a small area where some skin was scrapped off, the outside part of my palm portion was entirely red, and the outer portion of my wrist is sore. On my left arm, I have a small bruise, and from the inner upper portion of my wrist two maybe an inch or two up my arm is red and a little sore. The fingers on both hands are half-way curled because they hurt and feel heavy. My right ankle hurts and my legs are sore if one of the dogs decides to crawl on top of my legs (which poor Kiki made me experience several minutes ago.

I am too scared to fall asleep because I'm afraid I will go through that experience again. Poor Mom and Dad are angry over what happened and are also upset that I experienced that. They were probably scared I was going to end up on the ground. I think Mom said something about wanting to catch me but it happened too quickly.

I know that it's a cliche and that what happened only lasted a few seconds but it felt like forever. Don't people say that your life flashes in front of your eyes when you die or are nearly killed? Well, if it does happen, it didn't happen to me. When I was going down, I only thought that I was going down those stairs and I was not going to be okay. If what I thought is my life flashing in front of my eyes then yes, my life flashed in front of my eyes.

In the end, I am just thankful to be alive.

Stupid Sarah

Stupid Sarah left several minutes ago to get her stupid boyfriend. This is just plain ridiculous. He has spent almost EVERY single night here. Heck, he spent the past two or three nights here with Sarah picking him up, taking him home, picking him up, blah blah blah... And freakin' Dad won't say a freakin' word to her!

Both Mom and I are mad that freakin' Garan that he's spending every night here. I told Mom and Dad that tonight is the very last night he is to ever spend the night here. I also told Dad that if I fail any of my classes, I will kill both of them. I heard Mom tell Dad that Sarah is only taking advantage of us and that she's going to have Sarah start paying rent and NIPSCO and that she has to start making her vehicle payments. I snickered at that because I don't even know how many times they say that and that never happens.

Because Sarah's truck needs a new belt or something, she's been using Mom's truck. It's funny. Before Sarah started using Mom's truck, Dad told Sarah that she was only to use the truck to go to work and come home. NOT to go gallivanting around all over creation. But, obviously he's not forcing it on her.

So, here's what she doesn't do: garbage, dishes, dusting, vacuuming, taking care of Indie, taking care of Peyton, taking care of Kiki, any other cleaning, pay rent, pay NIPSCO, pay Internet, pay on her truck, fix her truck, buy new parts for her truck, pay Mom and Dad back for them buying puppy pads or new parts for her truck, etc.

And here's what she does do: eat our food, drink our beverages, get on the Internet, watch TV, wash her clothes, use the bathroom, use Mom and Dad's money for new parts for her truck, use Mom's truck to pick up and drop off her stupid boyfriend, and everything else that is the opposite of what is listed in the above paragraph.

Once again, I am so sick and tired of Garan spending the night. I wish that she would just frickin' move out. That way I could live happily ever after.

Senior Seminar

And Once Again, Another Dream

Yes, it was about him. No, I do not remember a ton about it. The only thing I remember is that I was driving either my Jeep or the Ford at one point and also that he was spending the night. Why was he spending the night? I do not remember at all.

I am so sick and tired of having these dreams about him. No, I did not think about him when I went to bed. I am thinking that something had better happen if I am having all of these dreams. If something is not going to happen, then freakin' STOP!!! I wish that I would be left alone in peace without all of these stupid dreams.

Yeah. I don't think I'll be left alone anytime soon. Who knows? I'll just have to wait and see.

Latest Video

Yesterday, I completed another video. This time it was a collaboration. I know that I did one a couple of years ago using a few shows. Well, this one is different. Try using eight shows and a Korean song. Well, it was hard trying to find the English lyrics until I remembered that the song was on YouTube with both the Korean and English lyrics. Unfortunately, I had to type all of it out.

I used Kim Young Joo and Jin Se Hee from City Hunter, Lee Shin and Lee Gyu Won from Heartstrings, Jiang Zhi Shu and Yuan Xiang Qin from It Started With A Kiss, Hyung Ki Joon and Gong Ah Jung from Lie to Me, Park Hae Young and Lee Seol from My Princess, Baek Seung Jo and Oh Ha Ni from Playful Kiss, Kang Ji Wook and Lee Yeon Jae from Scent of a Woman, and Hwang Tae Kyung and Go Mi Nam/Go Mi Nyu from You're Beautiful.

I didn't include the English lyrics on the video because I thought that the video wouldn't look good with lyrics on the video. When I watched it after saving it to the computer, I was on the verge of crying because it was so well made and it was meant to be a sad video (because of the lyrics) and it ended up being sad. I love my video so much. I think I've been watching it like crazy because it is such a beautiful video.

Once Again, HIM

Yesterday, he came over. Here's how it all started: Dad had gone to the laundromat to dry his clothes. When he came home, I stepped outside to see if he needed help. When I got closer to the sidewalk to the point where I could see the driveway across the street, I saw that he had gotten out of the Jeep. Even though my eyesight is not all that great, I could tell that it was him from a distance. Unfortunately, my stomach did jump when I first spotted him. I asked Dad, "You got it?" as in, "Can you carry it or do you need me to take it?" He said that he had it and so I proceeded to open the door for him.

When he said hi to me, I quickly said hi to him. No, I did not look at him. When he was still in the house when I was getting ready to head back up to school, I did not look at him. When Indie was wanting to go out, he asked about which leash was hers and I said that the lead is outside.

When I was walking off of the porch to go to Dad's Jeep, he said something to me. I think it was like "bye" or "drive safely" or something like that. But anyway, I didn't reply him or anything. When I had pulled out of the driveway just enough to see who was sitting on the porch, I think I saw someone wearing green on the porch. I think it might have been him because Dad would be wearing his hat and I don't think he was wearing green. So, anyway. Yeah. He showed up yesterday.

Kiki

Between two Thursdays, two Fridays, and last weekend ago, I wanted to write a post about Kiki. So, here it is. A week and three days late.

We ended up getting Kiki two days before we were supposed to get her. We were supposed to get her last Saturday but we ended up getting her that Thursday. So, here she is.

Yeah, she has ended up becoming my shadow. That Thursday night, she slept with Sarah. Then, when I let her sleep with me that Friday night because I knew Garan would be spending the night and blah blah blah, she stayed in my room all Saturday and ended up becoming my shadow. She is still my sister and Mom and Dad are still her parents, no matter what Dad says. If I leave the house for one second to get one of the leads to let the dogs out, she'll whine. If I leave for school, whine. If I shut the bathroom or my bedroom door, whine.

She has gotten used to being around Peyton and Indie. She's know going after Indie when she wants to play. And when Peyton and Indie are playing, Kiki wants in on the fun.

I guess Kiki is getting used to the fact that I leave some days. After I got back from interviewing someone from a local newspaper, Dad said that Kiki didn't whine when I left. So, I think that she is getting used to the fact that I leave. And she might be getting the idea that I always come back.

Well, that's all for now. I'll post a photo of Peyton, Indie, and Kiki sometime. Just not right now because it's on my camera and I don't feel like getting up.