The Latest on Alles Was Zählt

Written on October 10, 2011.

Late last week, I finally finished downloading the episodes to Alles Was Zählt. When I watched the episodes leading up to Roman's death and after on YouTube as I was getting the URLs, I started to bawl as usual. And then I watched Friday's episode and I was bawling again. I fear that for the last couple of weeks that I can watch AWZ on Youtube, I am going to be bawling. Deniz is taking it so hard.

When Florian sat some of Roman's things in a box on the kitchen counter, Deniz went to the box and picked up one thing after another and would be like, "This was his favorite shirt," or "He bought this when we went to the flea market," or whatever he said. When he was mentioning memories, I bawled. I think that he is going to have a hard time getting over Roman's death. Even I am going to have a hard time getting over his death whenever I watch those last episodes of him and those episodes where Deniz is suffering without Roman.

Oh! And from Friday's episode, I bawled the most I think. The reason is, because, after Deniz mentioned a few memories, Florian took Deniz to Roman's grave. Flo told him that he would give him a few minutes. Almost immediately, Deniz broke down. When he broke down, I broke down. Deniz told Roman that Roman had picked a beautiful spot. Deniz told him that he does not know how he is going to go on without him. It took me a few minutes to calm down after I finished the episode.