I checked my Hotmail account this morning in chapel. I checked my Junk folder and there was a shocking sender. You won't believe who it was. It was him. Yes, him. He didn't say anything in it. He had only sent a picture of Sasuke and Sakura and in the subject line wrote "Picture that you might like." I saw that it was sent on the twelfth.
When I saw that he had e-mailed me, I was like, What the heck! When I read the subject line, I was once again like, Let me guess, he sent me a photo of him and his girlfriend. When I saw the picture, I was so shocked. I was, yet again, like, Why in the world did he send me a photo of Sasuke and Sakura? Why does he remember that I like them?
No, I did not respond to him or anything. I do not plan on doing it. Heck, I do not even plan on talking to him at all. I figure that if one day, when I am at home alone and he comes over to give us a wedding invitation for his marriage with his girlfriend, I will bow to him like they do in all of the Korean dramas I have watched so far and I will not say a word. Why should I treat him as an old friend by talking to him like friends do? We have never been friends and we will never be friends. Heck, there was never a relationship between us and there never will be any type of relationship. This is what I will do: Speak when asked to and bow to him.
Friday, January 20, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Why Don't They Just Drop Dead?
Yesterday, to put it in simple terms, SUCKED!
I got home after school and Dad was on the phone with Uncle David. After I came out of the bathroom and he was off of the phone, I was like, "Let me guess... We have to work." And he said that we had to. That set me off. I started crying.
Okay, it's not about working, it's more about the day we have to work. April 21st. That is the day of graduation rehearsal and, on top of that, Blue Man Group. Okay, here I am, again crying.
To put it simply, it got hellish in here: I yelled at him, he yelled at me, he yelled at Mom, Mom yelled at him, he broke things, I threw things...
Mom and I talked when she drove to the laundry mat and we both agreed that he doesn't have the balls to tell his stupid brother no. Then, around seven or eight last night, when I was wanting the key so that I could go to school for the entire night to get away from everybody and do homework while there, I told Mom, yet again, directly in front of Dad that he chooses his brother over his own family!
And that's true. It's always been about Uncle David. When has it ever been about one of us? NEVER!! And that just irks me off to no extent.
So, in the end, I wasted $188 on him to buy Blue Man Group tickets. So now, I am probably going to sell them or something that way the tickets don't go to waste. So, on the day right before my graduation and after graduation rehearsal, I have to work. All because my stupid, idiotic, f***ing, so-called "father" chooses his own brother over me.
And we were going to celebrate my graduating and him liking Blue Man Group by going to see Blue Man Group.
I just wish that both of my so-called "parents" would DROP DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got home after school and Dad was on the phone with Uncle David. After I came out of the bathroom and he was off of the phone, I was like, "Let me guess... We have to work." And he said that we had to. That set me off. I started crying.
Okay, it's not about working, it's more about the day we have to work. April 21st. That is the day of graduation rehearsal and, on top of that, Blue Man Group. Okay, here I am, again crying.
To put it simply, it got hellish in here: I yelled at him, he yelled at me, he yelled at Mom, Mom yelled at him, he broke things, I threw things...
Mom and I talked when she drove to the laundry mat and we both agreed that he doesn't have the balls to tell his stupid brother no. Then, around seven or eight last night, when I was wanting the key so that I could go to school for the entire night to get away from everybody and do homework while there, I told Mom, yet again, directly in front of Dad that he chooses his brother over his own family!
And that's true. It's always been about Uncle David. When has it ever been about one of us? NEVER!! And that just irks me off to no extent.
So, in the end, I wasted $188 on him to buy Blue Man Group tickets. So now, I am probably going to sell them or something that way the tickets don't go to waste. So, on the day right before my graduation and after graduation rehearsal, I have to work. All because my stupid, idiotic, f***ing, so-called "father" chooses his own brother over me.
And we were going to celebrate my graduating and him liking Blue Man Group by going to see Blue Man Group.
I just wish that both of my so-called "parents" would DROP DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, January 2, 2012
Three Things, One Post
First of all, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I know that I am late on the Christmas post and the New Year post. But still...
Number One: For Christmas, I got an external hard drive for my computer, a Christmas bear, and Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2. Of course, when I saw Harry, I screamed. Why? Because I love Harry oh so much to no extent that I am not even putting in any punctuation marks because this can be like one entire sentence and I don't think I can stop any time soon because this is how much I love Harry - Okay, Jamie! Chill! Sorry.
Anyway, when Sarah opened up one of her presents, she was like, "Oh, my God!" It was a calendar of Marilyn Monroe whom she loves most of all. When Mom opened her present of two coloring books and a box of crayons, she cried because Grandma Carol always colored. Garan (Sarah's current boyfriend and who was spending Christmas with us) did not know why Mom was crying and so Sarah whispered the reason why to him. And when Mom opened up her big present of a Paula Deen cooking set, Mom nearly screamed. When Dad opened up his present of Blue Man Group tickets, if I recall, he was shocked or amazed or something to that extent. I would have to watch the video of everyone's reactions to their presents.
Number Two: New Year's wasn't much. When the fireworks were going off in the area on New Year's Eve and going off at Amish Acres to start the New Year, Peyton was going off. Mom took Indie outside along with Dad and me. I think Indie froze because her hair was medium length and the fact that it was around freezing outside. Other than that, not much.
Number Three: He came over today. Actually, it would be yesterday since I started writing this after the clock turned for the second day of the New Year. So, if I say "today," I mean "yesterday." I think you get what I mean. So, anyway, when Mom got home after work, Dad and she talked about him. At one point, I heard Dad say that he is trying to save up money to buy his girlfriend a ring and ask her to marry him. I heard that and I was like, No. That can't be happening. I'm sorry. Give me a moment. I'm sorry. I just had to spend three or four minutes crying. When I thought about it three or four, maybe five, hours ago, I thought, Now that he's going to be getting married, I will certainly be the last person in our graduating class to be married. Heck, I'm probably the only one that is not in a relationship. No, scratch that. The only one that has never been in a relationship.
I wish that I never heard that. I wish that he would be waiting for me. But these are only false hopes.
Here are two songs I feel fits how I feel right now: "I Can't Make You Love Me" by Bonnie Raitt and "Soulmate" by Natasha Bedingfield. I think Bonnie's fits just perfect. But... Yeah.
Number One: For Christmas, I got an external hard drive for my computer, a Christmas bear, and Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2. Of course, when I saw Harry, I screamed. Why? Because I love Harry oh so much to no extent that I am not even putting in any punctuation marks because this can be like one entire sentence and I don't think I can stop any time soon because this is how much I love Harry - Okay, Jamie! Chill! Sorry.
Anyway, when Sarah opened up one of her presents, she was like, "Oh, my God!" It was a calendar of Marilyn Monroe whom she loves most of all. When Mom opened her present of two coloring books and a box of crayons, she cried because Grandma Carol always colored. Garan (Sarah's current boyfriend and who was spending Christmas with us) did not know why Mom was crying and so Sarah whispered the reason why to him. And when Mom opened up her big present of a Paula Deen cooking set, Mom nearly screamed. When Dad opened up his present of Blue Man Group tickets, if I recall, he was shocked or amazed or something to that extent. I would have to watch the video of everyone's reactions to their presents.
Number Two: New Year's wasn't much. When the fireworks were going off in the area on New Year's Eve and going off at Amish Acres to start the New Year, Peyton was going off. Mom took Indie outside along with Dad and me. I think Indie froze because her hair was medium length and the fact that it was around freezing outside. Other than that, not much.
Number Three: He came over today. Actually, it would be yesterday since I started writing this after the clock turned for the second day of the New Year. So, if I say "today," I mean "yesterday." I think you get what I mean. So, anyway, when Mom got home after work, Dad and she talked about him. At one point, I heard Dad say that he is trying to save up money to buy his girlfriend a ring and ask her to marry him. I heard that and I was like, No. That can't be happening. I'm sorry. Give me a moment. I'm sorry. I just had to spend three or four minutes crying. When I thought about it three or four, maybe five, hours ago, I thought, Now that he's going to be getting married, I will certainly be the last person in our graduating class to be married. Heck, I'm probably the only one that is not in a relationship. No, scratch that. The only one that has never been in a relationship.
I wish that I never heard that. I wish that he would be waiting for me. But these are only false hopes.
Here are two songs I feel fits how I feel right now: "I Can't Make You Love Me" by Bonnie Raitt and "Soulmate" by Natasha Bedingfield. I think Bonnie's fits just perfect. But... Yeah.
Monday, December 19, 2011
My Millionth Crazy Dream
I had another crazy dream earlier. Of course I was going to write about it after I got up but I ended up not doing it. So, of course, it was about me and him.
Let's see. There was a date to go see a concert (I think a school concert. Possibly at the high school.), a ride on the moped, and Dad, Leon, and I think Sarah and Char standing and sitting in a kitchen (ours or theirs?) when we returned. That's all that I can recall. But I do remember that I quite enjoyed myself going out on a date with him.
I bet that dates all around the world tend to be good. I think that I would like to go out on a date with anyone as long as I would be able to enjoy myself. I would bet that a date with him would be good. Well, at least, I hope that it would be good. I just hope that I would be able to enjoy myself when I'm with him. I also hope that we wouldn't get into an argument like we always did when we were around each other or when we were chatting on MSN Messenger. A date is supposed to be good, fun, exciting, all of the positive words that are out there.
Well, it's not like I would be going out with him anyway. No matter how much I wanted to be with him and the once-in-a-while regrets I have.
Well, that's that! Nothing else. I just wonder what a date would be like.
Yes, I know. I know that I am 22 years old and I have never been on a date so don't start with me!
Let's see. There was a date to go see a concert (I think a school concert. Possibly at the high school.), a ride on the moped, and Dad, Leon, and I think Sarah and Char standing and sitting in a kitchen (ours or theirs?) when we returned. That's all that I can recall. But I do remember that I quite enjoyed myself going out on a date with him.
I bet that dates all around the world tend to be good. I think that I would like to go out on a date with anyone as long as I would be able to enjoy myself. I would bet that a date with him would be good. Well, at least, I hope that it would be good. I just hope that I would be able to enjoy myself when I'm with him. I also hope that we wouldn't get into an argument like we always did when we were around each other or when we were chatting on MSN Messenger. A date is supposed to be good, fun, exciting, all of the positive words that are out there.
Well, it's not like I would be going out with him anyway. No matter how much I wanted to be with him and the once-in-a-while regrets I have.
Well, that's that! Nothing else. I just wonder what a date would be like.
Yes, I know. I know that I am 22 years old and I have never been on a date so don't start with me!
Monday, December 5, 2011
Trans-Siberian Orchestra ROCKED!!
As you know, I purchased Trans-Siberian Orchestra tickets for Dad back in late September or early October. When I got the tickets, I waited for Mom to get home so that she could see his reaction when I gave them to him. I recorded his reaction. I just have to put it on a computer (probably mine).
On Saturday, December 3, 2011, Mom, Dad, and I went to Rosemont, Illinois to see TSO at the 3:00 P.M. (4:00 P.M. our time) show. I was so excited when it was the last week before the concert. On Friday night, I burned the "Christmas Eve & Other Stories" CD and added "Wizards in Winter" and "Requiem" to it. As soon as we left home and up to Rosemont and down to Aunt Lynn's and on the way home, we listened to both CDs ("Christmas Eve & Other Stories" and "The Christmas Attic") over and over again.
They played "Wizards in Winter," "Christmas Eve/Sarajevo 14/24," "Ornament," "Old City Bar," "Requiem" (with the music video playing on the screens), A Mad Russian's Christmas, and others that I know that I am forgetting. But still! At the beginning, they played a song that I never heard before but thought that it was awesome. Yesterday, when I looked for the song, it took me up to an hour to find it. When I found it, I could not stop listening to it. I am currently listening to it! The song is "Who I Am." There was another song that they played that I have never heard before. It was "Someday." It was sung by a woman and after it was kind of slow, it totally became a rock song.
The lights were so awesome. The laser screens, the lasers, the lights, the catwalk... All of the lights were awesome. Sure, at some parts it blinded you but it was totally worth it! I was afraid before the concert that throughout it all, Dad would be like, "Look at that light. Look at this one," rather than enjoying the thing.
And at the end of the songs at the beginning, Dad was only clapping. And I was thinking, Great. I spent $400 on tickets for TSO and he doesn't like it. But then when he first hollered at the end of one of the songs, I was like, Whew! Thank goodness! He is enjoying it! I didn't spend $400 on tickets. It was more like $365 but you get the idea.
Getting through Chicago was chaotic. It was backed up for a long time. Mom was complaining about it and I'm just sitting there while taking photos and not complaining because I knew that we would be going to go see TSO. After the concert, as we were driving past the Allstate Arena, Dad asked Mom if going through all of that traffic was well worth it. She said something and I thought, That doesn't answer his question. Then he said that it doesn't answer his question and she said yes.
After we left the Allstate Arena building, Dad said that it was one of the best Christmas presents he had received while he wrapped an arm around me to hug me because we were walking and he was holding onto Mom. I was so happy to hear that he quite enjoyed it. I am also glad that Mom quite enjoyed it herself.
When Dad told Aunt Lynn that we went to see TSO and that Mom and I both knew since summer what Dad was getting, Aunt Lynn said that she bet it was hard for Mom to keep quiet. It was hard for her. It was even hard for me. And I was the one who decided to get the tickets and to keep it hush-hush. And then someone said something and I looked at Mom and she winked at me a couple of times because we knew what Dad was getting for Christmas. And it is still a secret between the both of us. All he knows is that his present is in an envelope. I told Mom just to pretend that it is another set of TSO tickets rather than Blue Man Group tickets.
I can't wait to see his face when he finds out he has BMG tickets. I think I'll have to give it to him when Sarah's not around so that she doesn't know that I've been getting tickets for only Mom, Dad, and me.
But yeah. Trans-Siberian Orchestra ROCKED!!!! We're already planning on going for another year. This time with Sarah and possibly Aunt Lynn and Bill. I don't care who else goes just so long as Mom, Dad, and I can go again.
Whoo-hoo!!! TRANS-SIBERIAN ORCHESTRA!!!!!!!
On Saturday, December 3, 2011, Mom, Dad, and I went to Rosemont, Illinois to see TSO at the 3:00 P.M. (4:00 P.M. our time) show. I was so excited when it was the last week before the concert. On Friday night, I burned the "Christmas Eve & Other Stories" CD and added "Wizards in Winter" and "Requiem" to it. As soon as we left home and up to Rosemont and down to Aunt Lynn's and on the way home, we listened to both CDs ("Christmas Eve & Other Stories" and "The Christmas Attic") over and over again.
They played "Wizards in Winter," "Christmas Eve/Sarajevo 14/24," "Ornament," "Old City Bar," "Requiem" (with the music video playing on the screens), A Mad Russian's Christmas, and others that I know that I am forgetting. But still! At the beginning, they played a song that I never heard before but thought that it was awesome. Yesterday, when I looked for the song, it took me up to an hour to find it. When I found it, I could not stop listening to it. I am currently listening to it! The song is "Who I Am." There was another song that they played that I have never heard before. It was "Someday." It was sung by a woman and after it was kind of slow, it totally became a rock song.
The lights were so awesome. The laser screens, the lasers, the lights, the catwalk... All of the lights were awesome. Sure, at some parts it blinded you but it was totally worth it! I was afraid before the concert that throughout it all, Dad would be like, "Look at that light. Look at this one," rather than enjoying the thing.
And at the end of the songs at the beginning, Dad was only clapping. And I was thinking, Great. I spent $400 on tickets for TSO and he doesn't like it. But then when he first hollered at the end of one of the songs, I was like, Whew! Thank goodness! He is enjoying it! I didn't spend $400 on tickets. It was more like $365 but you get the idea.
Getting through Chicago was chaotic. It was backed up for a long time. Mom was complaining about it and I'm just sitting there while taking photos and not complaining because I knew that we would be going to go see TSO. After the concert, as we were driving past the Allstate Arena, Dad asked Mom if going through all of that traffic was well worth it. She said something and I thought, That doesn't answer his question. Then he said that it doesn't answer his question and she said yes.
After we left the Allstate Arena building, Dad said that it was one of the best Christmas presents he had received while he wrapped an arm around me to hug me because we were walking and he was holding onto Mom. I was so happy to hear that he quite enjoyed it. I am also glad that Mom quite enjoyed it herself.
When Dad told Aunt Lynn that we went to see TSO and that Mom and I both knew since summer what Dad was getting, Aunt Lynn said that she bet it was hard for Mom to keep quiet. It was hard for her. It was even hard for me. And I was the one who decided to get the tickets and to keep it hush-hush. And then someone said something and I looked at Mom and she winked at me a couple of times because we knew what Dad was getting for Christmas. And it is still a secret between the both of us. All he knows is that his present is in an envelope. I told Mom just to pretend that it is another set of TSO tickets rather than Blue Man Group tickets.
I can't wait to see his face when he finds out he has BMG tickets. I think I'll have to give it to him when Sarah's not around so that she doesn't know that I've been getting tickets for only Mom, Dad, and me.
But yeah. Trans-Siberian Orchestra ROCKED!!!! We're already planning on going for another year. This time with Sarah and possibly Aunt Lynn and Bill. I don't care who else goes just so long as Mom, Dad, and I can go again.
Whoo-hoo!!! TRANS-SIBERIAN ORCHESTRA!!!!!!!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
What "Family Traditions"??
Happy Thanksgiving, 2011!!
So, I am stuck in my room today. Why? Because our family tradition of sitting down together as a family (even while dinner is cooking) is ruined. Why? Because my mom is watching football. I just knew that I would be in my room today. I told Dad that only stupid families watch football and that we are not a stupid family. The thing is is that stupid families watch football rather than sit down together as a family and watch holiday movies together. And here my "family" is. Being a stupid family.
So, here I am, sitting on my bed, listening to Disturbed's Hell, and, okay, plain and simple, on the Internet. Yesterday, I figured that I would stay in my room all day unless it was necessary (such as getting something to eat or drink or whatever). Once again, I just knew that we wouldn't sit down together as a family.
Watch. At Christmas, we'll open our presents together and go our separate ways. No family time.
Great! I am on the verge of crying because we're not a family anymore. I bet everyone else in the family is sitting down together and doing things as a family.
Why is it that I am trying to preserve us as being a family? I mean, even during the normal year, I try to get us (at least Mom, Dad, and me) to sit down and enjoy a movie night together once in a while. But that has never happened. Amazingly, the only time the three of us will probably act as a normal family is when we go see Trans-Siberian Orchestra next weekend. All I want is for us to be a family rather than four individuals who happen to be living in the same house!
If I ever have a family of my own, there will absolutely be no football, no regular television, no computer access, no ANYTHING!! If we want to watch TV, we do it as a family and we watch holiday movies.
Why can't I have a family that has people who actually want to sit down together as a family and enjoy the holidays?
So, I am stuck in my room today. Why? Because our family tradition of sitting down together as a family (even while dinner is cooking) is ruined. Why? Because my mom is watching football. I just knew that I would be in my room today. I told Dad that only stupid families watch football and that we are not a stupid family. The thing is is that stupid families watch football rather than sit down together as a family and watch holiday movies together. And here my "family" is. Being a stupid family.
So, here I am, sitting on my bed, listening to Disturbed's Hell, and, okay, plain and simple, on the Internet. Yesterday, I figured that I would stay in my room all day unless it was necessary (such as getting something to eat or drink or whatever). Once again, I just knew that we wouldn't sit down together as a family.
Watch. At Christmas, we'll open our presents together and go our separate ways. No family time.
Great! I am on the verge of crying because we're not a family anymore. I bet everyone else in the family is sitting down together and doing things as a family.
Why is it that I am trying to preserve us as being a family? I mean, even during the normal year, I try to get us (at least Mom, Dad, and me) to sit down and enjoy a movie night together once in a while. But that has never happened. Amazingly, the only time the three of us will probably act as a normal family is when we go see Trans-Siberian Orchestra next weekend. All I want is for us to be a family rather than four individuals who happen to be living in the same house!
If I ever have a family of my own, there will absolutely be no football, no regular television, no computer access, no ANYTHING!! If we want to watch TV, we do it as a family and we watch holiday movies.
Why can't I have a family that has people who actually want to sit down together as a family and enjoy the holidays?
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Take-Out
GOD! I am so sick and tired of Pizza Hut. Every single time dad wants to get take-out, it is always Pizza Hut. The only time we get a variety is when mom is home (whether she has the day off or she goes and gets dinner after work). Although, with mom, there is never any real variety. It is always McDonald's.
So, with dad it is Pizza Hut. With mom, it is always McDonald's.
What about Burger King?! Or Subway?! Or Arby's?! Or what about KFC/Taco Bell?!
I mean, I do not care what we eat but I am sick and tired of eating the same thing every single time we get take-out. I am pretty sure steak or chicken or pork lovers would get sick and tired if they only ate steak or chicken or pork every single time they have dinner. I am pretty sure they would be like, "What about sausage or eggs or hot dogs or whatever else there is to eat?" I am pretty sure they would want a variety in there somewhere.
But apparently only with dad it is Pizza Hut and with mom it is McDonald's. BOOOOOORRRIIIIIINNNGGG!!!!!!
So, with dad it is Pizza Hut. With mom, it is always McDonald's.
What about Burger King?! Or Subway?! Or Arby's?! Or what about KFC/Taco Bell?!
I mean, I do not care what we eat but I am sick and tired of eating the same thing every single time we get take-out. I am pretty sure steak or chicken or pork lovers would get sick and tired if they only ate steak or chicken or pork every single time they have dinner. I am pretty sure they would be like, "What about sausage or eggs or hot dogs or whatever else there is to eat?" I am pretty sure they would want a variety in there somewhere.
But apparently only with dad it is Pizza Hut and with mom it is McDonald's. BOOOOOORRRIIIIIINNNGGG!!!!!!
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